Contents
The Self Says, I Am
I
Thrownness
I’m Not Mad at My Mother for Letting Me Roam the Neighborhood Unsupervised
When I Was Afraid
But Nothing Bad Ever Happened to Me in the Woods
Epithalamium with Paper Bell
I Want to Tell You What Poverty Gave Me—
II
Poet Loves Hunter Though She’ll Eat No Meat
Lo
I’ll Tell You What Helped
Often in Dreams She Was My Girlfriend Until I Remembered, Still Asleep, That It Wasn’t Okay
Monachopsis Aubade
Lessons
III
When She Speaks of the Fire
IV
Epithalamium with Inventory
The Parting
After Not Having Spoken to His Father for Fifteen Years, He Authorizes the Cremation
After Having Declined to Attend the Memorial Service, He Reads the Messages Left by Mourners on the Funeral Home’s Website and Speaks His Own Elegy to the Photograph of His Father on the Screen
Poem Written after I Have Again Needlessly Hurt My Husband’s Feelings
Epithalamium with Empty Nest
Not-Quite Empty Nest Elegy
When We’re in Bed and You Take Out Your Mouth Guard, I Know It’s On
V
Multiverse Love Song
Benediction with Foundlings
I Cry Each Time We Say Goodbye Because I Know I’m Always Sending You to War
Poem Written While My Friend Has Bone Marrow Harvested for Stem Cells
Dear Uncle,
Little Deprivation in the Big North Woods
Sobriety Sonnet
VI
When I Was Afraid
The One in Which I Admit I’m Still Afraid
America You’re Breaking
Poem Written the Day Before the Pandemic Brings Our Kid Home from Europe Unexpectedly
Elegy in Quarantine
General Absolution